Today Mom is 85!
She used to apologize that we had to fuss about her birthday
so close to Christmas ...
never being one to expect anything.
I think back over the years we celebrated -
my favorite being the times when Monika and I took her shopping -
she'd be giddy with excitement about trying on clothes
and we could tell when she felt beautiful in something new.
Five years ago the grandchildren surprised her
with a Perishky baking party -
nothing that she would have enjoyed more
than showing them how.
It was, I think, if we could ask her,
one of her favorite birthdays
and one of her last times fully there,
before the fog settled in.
I've been thinking about what it would be like
if we could have "her" back for a day ...
sneak up on her in her kitchen,
singing as she works.
How would I plan out the day with her?
What would we do?
What would I ask her?
I try again and again, to come up with the perfect day ...
to have her roll out one more dough with me,
to share her favorite muffin and coffee,
to listen to her stories.
To have her ask questions about the family,
to tell her about what the kids are doing -
what is happening in our lives,
the hard things and the sweet things.
... and I realize a day would not suffice.
We have all these wonderful memories that
take up decades of time.
That is our gift.
And one day we will have eternity -
to catch up on these few missing years.
I love you, Mom
♡♡♡
7 comments:
Your post warmed my heart. Missing my Grandmother at this time of year and I think your sentiment of all
the wonderful years being our gift is lovely.
A heartfelt post full of both longing and acceptance. Happy 85th Birthday to your mom.
Beautifully said, Anneliese. May you have a wonderful day just being with your Mom and remembering all the years she cared for her family - warm birthday wishes to her.
Helen
I remember the last time we took her shopping. She didn't seem to be quite there with us and I remember being patient, thinking it was probably the last time. I especially am thankful that we made time to meet at her place (almost) every Monday for coffee and perischki or muffins. Those are precious memories. Monika.
Happy birthday to your dear mom, Anneliese. That Perishky baking party was so timely.
I agree the Perishky baking lessons were so fun and memorable. One of your best stories. I smile still thinking of it. Happy Birthday to your Mom.
xxSharon
A heartfelt and meaningful post Anneliese. So many wonderful memories to hold on to. You have a "goodly inheritance" to treasure. These days will surely pass but the thought that you will meet again someday is so powerful. Hugs ...
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