The Why and How

 

I've heard it said  that bloggers tend to make their lives look perfect.
I understand.
 It's what we choose to focus on.
I believe that blogging gives me an avenue to practice
the discipline of looking for
things that inspire and things I'm thankful for.
My days certainly are not one glorious day after another -
from mundane to anxious moments
there's still the mammogram appointment,
the shower that needs cleaning,
the pile that needs sorting,
the broken toe, the sore back,
misunderstandings laying heavy on the heart,
events that make me nervous . . .
fear, uncertainty and loss to process.

Yesterday I went to see a friend for whom,
life recently came to an abrupt halt, due to cancer.
I'm sitting here, trying to work through the vision
of her whole being ebbing away
 as she considers the values of this life growing strangely dim.
She told me she is ready to go,
but I wish I could have more time with her.
More time to weave our friendship through
the joy of sharing the stages of our life.
She had such zest and such a giving spirit -
how does one say good bye?
Feeling this pain, I know it's not what God intended when He made us.
As I left her side - tears streaming down my face,
she said goodbye, she said my name . . .
and in hearing that, sorrow gave way to the truth -
it's through our faith in what is yet to come.
That's how.